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S and those of the people around him it s about casual sex and pleasure it all seems selfish and useless Through all the book though we see John falling apart his half lies are unveiled his mind is revealed and his heart is shattered The self assured John of the beginning of the book the stud the irresistible sex on legs young man shows all his fears and self hatred John doesn t belong any where He feels his Latino heritage sets him apart from the rest and he s secretly afraid that people think less of him because of it he refuses to speak in tongues in his Church and he looks at that community with detachment and skepticism being part of his Church keeps him apart from the other students at school his sexuality doesn t conform since he has sex with plenty of girls but he gives his body to his gay best friend Nathan the only guy he s attracted to he d like to be close to his brother but his brother is not interested since he is not very good at his father s job he believes he s a disappointment to him he doesn t apply to college because s a disappointment to him he doesn t apply to college because knows he won t be accepted he doesn t play football and is scolded for it because he knows he won t be good nough Most of all John doesn t love himselfJohn Beloved like the apostle Jesus loved Nathan loves him in a spiritual way and in a sexual way John the serial seducer of women with a girlfriend and plenty on the side gives himself to Nathan he lets Nathan have sex with him he submits to his friend As the story goes on what we see with surprise and a sort of dread is that John is looking for humiliation and through this humiliation it seems he wants to Naked expiate for something The book is this long voyage from feeling unworthy ofverything to feeling worthy of love It s such a painful voyage It was as if John was doing Shadow Scale (Seraphina, everything against common sense dismissingvery ounce of self preservation It was so frustrating it was unpleasant We want our heroes to be strong blameless confident In a very perverse way John is also like that but he doesn t see it for a long timeJohn can see the hurt in other people s Claim The Crown eyes and he tries to make it better He sees people in danger and he tries to protect them He needs help and he trusts the right people to help him He sees injustice and abuse and he s not indifferent He genuinely loves Nathan in the most selfless and pure way he cherishes himven if he has sex with other people other guys Nerds even if he s capable of some degree of love for someonelse he s given his heart only to Nathan who loves him back in the same selfless and pure way Atom Heart John BelovedAll the fooling around was hard to read in the same selfless and pure way Atom Heart John BelovedAll the fooling around was hard to read a romantic reader point of view but John is also an adolescent on the verge of adulthood He hasn t mastered his desires yet he doesn t In the Shadow of the Crown (Queens of England, even know where they come from and instead of repressing them hexplores them and wants the readers to know about this telling Bark everything in a sort of clinical way It s not always heartfelt it s not arousing He forces the reader to be there with him as if assisting to a surgery procedure Look at what s happening Look at what I ve done Look at how fucked up I am how fucked up it can be He s not asking for our sympathies it s as if he wants witnesses John kept me there unwilling displeased frustrated worried afraidThere are many themes in this book coming of age sexual orientation religious bigotry sexual abuse There s rape And there s love as a uest as a goal as a giftI don t know if I d recommend this book If you need to be head over heels for your protagonist maybe you ll find this book insufferable If you like delicate romance with a straight path to happiness you won t probablyven consider this book as romance If you like hot sex to make you dream and desire you ll be probably disappointed and maybe On Such a Full Sea even repelled If you read it despite these warnings and you don t like it blame it on the story I don t think it would be right to blame it on John I LOVE THIS BOOKBut it is the most useless and the most helpless review you could find So skip it I m not going to talk about this book Because I just don t want It ll stay with me I m not going to share I m selfish Besides I m not able to deliver well structured and reasonable reviews They are toomotional and totally meaningless to be goodJust a few words It is about Nathan The best friend of John And it is about John A lot of about John And about some other bad and good guys And about the world family religion sex lust church friendship belief music life And love Ah forget it *Actually It Is About Much Much Told *it is about much much Told the John s POV He is chaotic narcissistic illogic infidel and loyal inconsistent Hello, Hippo! Goodbye, Bird! extremely conceited and intense He is just John Most of you will probably hate him But not me John s narrative voice is one of the most uniue in gay literatureThat s not from meAnd so is the story It s just like a real life And view spoilerit has a HEA hide spoiler 2012 Rainbow Awards Honorable Mention 5 from at least 1 judge. S narrative voice is one of the most uniue in gay literature Atom Heart John Beloved is literate intimaterotic and delightful delivering unexpected moments of gra. I d like to offer a cogent review of this book but I can t do it Maybe some other time For now I ll just list a few random feelings I had while reading it1 Anger John does things that are inexcusable2 Hatred John is the least likable protagonist I ve Cannibal ever read I truly despised him3 Disgust The things that happen to John and other characters just NO4 Pity Eventually I saw through the game John was playing on himself He s actually a rather pathetic boyMore than anythinglse I m offended by this book I moved from distaste to disgust to being just offended by this whole sordid mess I will never Mastered (The Enforcers, ever read this book againAnd yes five stars I want to reward the author with my respect for a job very well doneThank you Lena for the recommendationThank you Mark for reading this with me 5 StarsFinally FINALLYAfter months of not finding the one to add to my All Time Fav shelf I have found it I ask you to read it on your own risk It s very contra version I can tven put into words how much and why I loved this book so much But I ll tryThis book is not for Man, Son of Man everyoneIt was really difficult and frustrating to read at times but in sort of a god wayIn a good way because John our MC is very complex teenager with a very uniue POV one that we don t see very often He is full of himself he is cocky heven say that he is Gods gift Yea right I DID NOT buy itHe is so insecureHe grew up in a very religious family yet he is skeptical to begin with and when looking into it he is a total no This was intenseBut definitely not in a good way More like just kill me now intenseThis book depressed me And made me very sad It reminded me how stupid some young horny teenagers are How reckless and selfish How inconsiderate they are to other people s feelings It s so Alter Ego easy to break a young fragile heart And the person doing the breaking doesn tven think twice In fact he doesn t think at allI want to pinpoint that I didn t hate the book or John Beloved We all made mistakes when we were that age But the whole package of issues touched in this book just made me angry and upset Perhaps I read it at the wrong time I don t mind heartbreaking stories as long as they heal me in the nd but this one had failed to make me feel good and I did not believe in that nding for one secondThere were two things I liked about it though First the writing This author definitely knows how to grip a reader s attention I ll give him that And Nathan The guy I wanted to hug and protect and shake some sense into him He deserved so much better than John I d love to read Nathan s story too BUT I M AFRAID I NEED I m afraid I need break than John I d love to read Nathan s story too but I m afraid I need a break get the feeling there will be trouble but I m afraid I need a break get the feeling there will be trouble the seuel and I don t know if can handle it right now 25 starsBR with Lena Sofia Otila and Alona Ladies thank you What a bustI haven t read any reviews beforehand but I read the blurb and got super Uncommon Wisdom excited at the mention of Rainbow Award winner which by itself was alreadynough to set this bar very high But that was not all besides the Rainbow Award winner mention was stated John s narrative voice is one of the most uniue in gay literature Dad worked for an Unseen City establishedlectrician several years before starting his own company Matt works for him regularly now and will someday take over the business I imagine Matt is goin OhI am beyond pissed I am in rant mode There be cursing ahead and I am not sorryWhat did I just read A book with a misleading blurb is what I read This was a fucking mess A complete and disgusting fucking mess John our narrator is a self aware and Art egotistical arrogant ass He is He says it himself What he does in this book in the beginning I could forgive him for He was confused or whatever I get it I can suspend reality for that But the shit he pulls the last half of the book is unforgivable Unbelievable Just No No No No No NOOO I thought I was getting a complicated and angst filled love story of two young boys trying to find their way to one another I did not think I was getting a story of an arrogant horny teenager who attends one of the most fucked up churches imaginable stringing along his best friend who has been in love with him forever A horny teenager who plays with themotions of so many people but passes is off as being seriously fucked up Yeah John you are Maybe if you thought with something other than your dick it wouldn t be that way There was nothing good about this book Not one thing The beginning was unnecessarily heavy and all over the place There were so many characters tossed at you in God Is in the Crowd each different chapter that I had to duck the flying bodies to see my way to the story There were so many literary nuances in the story along with so much from the Bibleargh I get it The author is well versed but I don t need to be beat over the head with it repeatedly Nathan where the hell is your voice Oh I know it s in your book which I doubt I will read now I don t want to hear from you How could thatnd that way There is now way in hell two chapters ca. Rainbow Award winner Atom Heart John Beloved chronicles the lives of two boys who become friends at age thirteen The story is told by ighteen year old John who uie. N make up for all the crap that went down in this book and have it nd that way MY GOD What the fuck did I read The audacity to do that I am sorry I can t accept it I don t downshift that fast I had zero connection to the characters to anyone in the book to be honest How could I when there was no time to get to know someone What do I know about John he likes to fuck Fuck anyone he can What do I know about Nathan he lacks a serious spine and self worth to fall for someone like John He doesn t deserve it he doesn t deserve the pure love and devotion from Nathan That little speech at the The Matriarchs (The Family end of being a changed man I am sorry but fuck that No Ugh This book just pissed me off page after page I am so mad I paid full price for this It wasn t worth it I was prepared to have my heart ripped out but I was not prepared to want to beat a motherfucker with a motherfucker at thend of this book I know that others liked it Praised it and it won awards but this book was a disaster of Notes for the Everlost epic proportions I am beside myself with what I just read Just I can t I am done John is a dick He is a conceited self absorbed selfish prick He s a lying cheating fucked up 18 yr old boy I don t think I am god s gift to mankind but I do kind of feel like I was a pretty good gift for certain people who havenjoyed me I do think of myself as a prizeThat s what John is a boy A boy who makes mistakes lots of mistakes A boy who has to deal with When I Moan (Vassi and Seri 1: Russian Stepbrother Romance) evil that no one should have to deal withspecially not a young boy Evil that hides behind god and religion and self righteousness A boy who deals with a huge regret that No Biggy! eats at him He s a boy who is all those things I called him at the beginning but he is also insecure confused and self loathing All of John s horrible decisions and actions come from this self loathing And they are some serious fucked up things I had always known I was nothingWhen he s talking about how great he is he s usually talking about his body his looks and his sexual prowess He always wonders if the girls he s withven like him Even his girlfriend treats him badly after Crush It! each time they have sex Is it her own guilt or that she doesn t much like himither and just wants to leave once she gets what she wants Nathan is different Nathan loves John not just John s body I never felt better about myself than when I saw myself through Nathan s yes The thing about John is that he knows that he s an asshole and a fuck up Like the conceited asshole that I am I had only thought about how lucky he was that I was letting him Have Sex With Me I sex with me I never stopped to consider how

lucky i was 
I was John may love Nathan and know that Nathan loves him but John doesn t deserve that love and Nathan deserves better than John Nathan is perfect a good friend a good son a good person and way too good for John I knew I should be ncouraging this since I had a girlfriend and he had no one but pathetic me And he deserves better than you Damn right So why does Nathan Deep Listening even like him anyway I m not sure but John can be loyal He may not understand his parents beliefs but he ll respect them because they re important to them and he loves them He is loyal to his best friend Nathan if not his lover He always defends him protects him and supports him He s the best dude I know you asshole I don t know why the fuck he wants to hang out with a screw up like me but he does And I m glad This is John s story told from his POV and we seeverything as it relates to John We don t see Nathan outside of John and so we can t really know if Nathan is as perfect as John believes him to be What we do know is that he loves John and is willing to accept any part John is willing to give And in the Bird-by-Bird Gardening end I think this is John s love story This is the story of a boy who loves his best friend and is trying to learn how to deal with it A story of a boy learning how to love and how to let himself be loved when he feels he doesn t deserve it I don t like John but by thend I felt like maybe I understood himThis was not an The Works of Saint Augustine easy read It s dark and it made me uncomfortable and angry many times At times I felt it was too long and too much There s rape and cheating andvil things happen to young children I had to take breaks I read 4 fluffy books and caught up with Sons of Anarchy in between reading this I don t know if I would recommend this book I really can t say who should read it What I can say is that I m glad I did It s motional and powerful and it will stay with me for a long time BR with Alona Irina Lena and Sofia So weird and disturbing and I loved itHot hot hot view spoilerall that cum play hide spoiler What have I just read My head is spinning and buzzing with thoughts And wonderI am going to repeat something all the other readers said John the narrator is not nice John is not likable At the beginning he looks like a sort of unmovable monolith a block of self confidence and arrogance Everything is superficial at the beginning it s about his look. Tly whispers to his best friend one night in bed Do me This novel is a breathtaking love story and an intense coming of age story that resembles no other book John'.

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