She s moving out of the house is that she is being sent to vermont to attend the wooden barn a therapeutic boarding school for emotionally fragile highly intelligent students where they can recover from the lingering effects of trauma jam is one of five students chosen to be in a class called special topics in english an extremely selective course taught periodically by the formidable mrs uenell around which and whom mysterious rumors have always swirled former students have claimed the class was life changing but have always been very secretive about why or how or what the class even studied and jam s about to find out but first she s going to moon on and on about her ead boyfriend and her pain actually although i snark i The Pidgin Warrior didn t mind this part i thought it was a very authenticescription of a teenager losing their first love as brief as it was time is Baby to Toddler Month by Month. Simone Cave and Caroline Fertleman different for teenagers and the length of a relationship is in no way commensurate to the emotions it inspires and her attraction to reeve made sense a shy and uiet good girl being seduced by no than an accent a slouch and some skinny black jeans i loved that sheescribed his voice as having a scrape to it i loved this paragraph He looked like a member of one of those British punk bands from the eighties that my Babys on Fire dad still loves and whose albums he keeps in special plastic sleeves because he s positive they re going to be worth a lot of money someday Once I looked up one of myad s most prized albums on eBay and saw that someone had bid sixteen cents for it which for some reason made me want to cryi thought that was a great Randolf Emmanuel Fontanilla (The Billionaire Boys Club, detail because jam is at that age where she is transitioning from a child s whole world love for her parents to feeling sorry for them and protective of them but back to reeve always back to reeve she spends her time remembering each and every conversation they ever had greedily sucking the marrow from each precious memory but she never talks about theay he Game for Life died or how it happened in a school full of emotionally fraught teenagers i mean than your run of the mill emotionally fraught teenagers everyone is very respectful of each others pasts and secrets and some are open than others aboutisclosing how they ended up at the wooden barnjam is friendly with her roommate j but once she begins attending her special topics in english class and its mysterious life changing experiences begin to manifest she bonds in a much cultish way with the other students in the class marc casey griffin and sierra as the year goes on extraordinary things begin to happen to them things that can only be iscussed with each other on the first ay of class mrs uenell enigmatically reuests that they look out for one another and that s exactly what
they o sharing their past and current experiences and being there for do sharing their past and current experiences and being there for other in that always to me effective breakfast club scenario some of the One Night at the Lake difficulties i had were with theisparity of the characters trauma now i know grief operates on a sliding scale and everyone has ifferent emotional responses to their experiences but pitting casey s history against marc s it s not even in the same ballpark it s not even the same sport and when jam s REVEAL is REVEALED at first it s kind of awesome i gotta say just because of the shock of it all
And There S Thatthere s that experience of readjusting your reader thinking and oing that whole okay so where oes that leave us reevaluation but once i was steadied i gotta admit i was much less sympathetic to jam and that might make me a monster but rereading the earlier parts of the book i find that my bafflement perfectly aligns with the bafflement of jam s former friends so i think i m okay most of my other niggles were minor and involve too many plot specifics to be useful here one positive note view spoiler i loved the etail that nothing in belzhar could occur that hadn t happened in the real world and i absolutely loved the gradual The Gnadiges Fraulein. distancing she experienced with reeve how she was moving on in life while he was staying exactly as he had beenuring their time together and how his sameness began to bore her Unscrewed despite her eually powerful need to cling to her memory of happiness or imagined happiness as it were i thought that was a very realepiction both of growing up and outgrowing the things you used to cherish about a person but also of the healing process itself how as new experiences accumulate the pain recedes just a little further and the memories become bittersweet instead of just bitter of course once the inverted commas are slapped around memories it gets messier and the belzhar experience for jam is just sustaining her American Musicians delusions and it gets much murkier and problematic for me hide spoiler This story makes a mockery of love emotional integrity and mental illness and it s glamoured by unmagical magical realism a sophisticated literary style and a twist upon which everything else hinges Iespise feeling manipulated much as many of the characters in this book would if they had any sense especially when the plot and writing are not particularly remarkable and when the characters and relationships are so incredibly shallow and meaningless There s an attempt to interject a point to the story in the end I suppose but it s only a footnote to this elaborate heartless exercise in writing techniue An advance. Ored and Jam can feel Reeve’s arms around her once again But there are hidden truths on Jam’s path to reclaim her loss From New York Times bestselling author Meg Wolitzer comes a breathtaking and surprising story about first love eep sorrow and the power of acceptance.
read ê eBook, PDF or Kindle ePUB Æ Meg Wolitzer45 I was sent this book by Penguinteen in exchange for an honest reviewYou know those books where you just go into them expecting ehhh but come out of them like holy heck this was amazing and changed my mind set yeah well this was one of those books for me I found out this novel is greatly inspired by Sylvia Plath s book Bell Jar which I have not read but now really really want to We follow Jam a young girl whose first love ied She s struggling with her situation and is put in a boarding school for fragile highly intelligent teens In her english class they re given journals to write in and when they begin to write in them they re transported to Belzhar an idyllic world At first I was not liking the If you re already skeptical about a person someone being in Toyota Management System deepark mourning lasting a year over someone they knew for only a few weeks then this is efinitely not going to be a book for you Although normally that would put me off I really really wanted this book to work Considering Wolitzer is well established in adult literary fiction I suppose I figured she was likely to have a shot at creating a truly wrenching story of lost love even if that love was so brief There were a couple of clear ways this scenario could work and I was curious to see if Wolitzer would pull it off She idn t Everything about this story is surface level only There is no Stonebrook Cottage (Carriage House, depth of emotion no characterevelopment limited growth stunted pacing and one hell of an obnoxious ending that had me going Seriously Full review at The Midnight Garden Incredible I inhaled this It is like a A Seductive Revenge dream It is LITERALLY like aream and like a California Living dream you cannot put itown Sad fascinating funny profound real It took me months to get through this one I kept forgetting I was even reading it so let s just say it wasn t a memorable read for me It is uniue So Damn Lucky (Lucky OToole, don t get me wrong but I justidn t really care about any of these characters Then when the magical element got introduced it made the book even less interesting not as I had hopedOk so let s start with this premise After her boyfriend ies Jam gets sent to boarding school for troubled teens and in one of her classes she s given a journal that to her surprise sends her to a magical place whenever she writes in it This place is free of pain and heartache it s a world where the tragedy that brought them to this school has not happened Although this might sound cheesy I thought it was a really creative premise with tons of potential I expected a lot of epth and soul searching but instead I found myself getting bored while Forced predictable patronizing trite Just no I have never been so isappointed in an author I kept reading hoping she would redeem herself Nope See reviews at YA Midnight ReadsI originally rated this 25 stars but screw it it
s been almost 2 months since I read this and I m still majorly pissed off Lowered to 2 starsbeen almost 2 months since I read this and I m still majorly pissed off Lowered to 2 stars is a very ifficult book for me to review I ve been sitting here in front of my laptop for than half an hour just fuming and raging inside because of this book Because I cannot talk about the cons just yet let me just tell you guys what this book is aboutThis book is about Jam Jam s full name is Jamaica and yep her parents named her after the place where she was conceived As amusing as that is Belzhar is not an amusing book It is a A Study in Scandal (Scandalous dark and profound for one of the first things we find out about our main character is that she was in love with Reeve Maxfield and heied Jam soon becomes inconsolable and her parents end up sending her to The Wooden Barn which is a school for teens who are emotionally fragile highly intelligent At The Wooden Barn Jam finds out that she s been chosen to be part of Mrs uenell s Special Topics in English class This is an extremely selective and arguably elite course where only a handful of students around 5 are selected to partake each year Jam s roommate DJ tells her that all the students who took Mrs uenell s course in the previous years came out claiming that their lives had been changed forever but no one outside the class really knows how and those who were in the class never seemed to Letting it Go divulge much So on the firstay of her class Jam is skeptical Soon she and the other students in her small class are handed a red leather notebook and what they The One Who Stays (Summer Island, don t know is how much that notebook will change their livesLet s talk about the prose because it was one of the things I loved most here Meg Wolitzer s writing skills are clearly not lacking While Iidn t have the best experience with this novel of her s I am efinitely going to check out her previous books Her writing though rather simplistic was coated in honesty and bleakness and some of these moments in this novel hit really close to home for me And I also know that pain can seem like an endless ribbon You pull it and you pull it
You Keep Gathering It Towardkeep gathering it toward and as it collects you really can t believe that there s something else at the end of it Something that isn t just painOne of my two issues I had this book was the superficiality of the characters and their relationships I idn t manage to gain any emotional bond with any of the characters Sure I felt incredibly sorry for them and I was thoroughly intrigued by their pasts and what led them to end up at The Wooden Barn but if they Smijurija u mjerama died randomly I wouldn t have blinked. If life were fair Jam Gallahue would still be at home in New Jersey with her sweet British boyfriend Reeve Maxfield She’d be watching old comedy sketches with him She’d be kissing him in the library stacks She certainly wouldn’t be at The Wooden Barn a therapeutic boa. Any eye What was of a problem for me were the relationships romantic and platonic I totallyidn t get why Jam and Griffin ended up smooching Speer during this book I mean it was completely unnecessary and only took up pages when it shouldn t have Jam was trying toeal with the repercussions of her boyfriend s eath for god s sake This is just another classic example in YA books where someone meets someone else to help them move on As for Jam and Sierra s friendship it felt incredibly abrupt One minute Sierra is completely closed off the next minute they re BFFs Please just noIf I hadn t read the ending of this novel I would give this book around 3 stars While I had issues with the characters and relationships I loved the writing and the plot line especially the Belzhar otherworld aspect Unfortunately the ending to Belzhar exists and I read it And now I fully regret it I m hiding this following part in spoiler tags to iscuss why I hated the ending so much view spoilerI have two things to say about this ending 1 I am so so angry with the ending I feel cheated and manipulated into trying to feeling sorry for a girl who got obsessed with a guy who was so obviously not into her And 2 It s rather evident that Jam is The Ring Of The Dove delusional No Ion t mean it in the joking way I m saying that Jam had a Delusional Disorder Yes that is a thing I actually The Lost Literature of Medieval England didn t know myself about this until I searched it up on the web and it s a mental illness with manyifferent subcategories I am really annoyed that the author A Curse of Kings didn t bother to fully address Jam s circumstances Herelusion NEEDED to be taken note of because it s something that happens to real people as well and brushing it off like that has kept me uite pissed off for the past few hours If you re going to Garfield Dishes It Out (Garfield, deal with mental illness in a booko it the right way hide spoiler 35 stars Reading this so soon after having read Sylvia Plath s The Bell Jar for the first time was an interesting experience If you can t tell from the title Wolitzer pulls heavily from Plath s novel but I wouldn t say this story is necessarily a remake or rip off of the originalIn Belzhar we follow Jam Gallahue a sixteen year old girl who is sent to a school for students with issues whether they suffer from emotional physical or psychological trauma On her first ay at The Wooden Barn the school Jam finds out she s in a class called Special Topics in English a class that is only taught when the professor Mrs feels like teaching it and only for a select group of students Jam along with four other students at the school It is astonishing how mediocre and immature this book is Wolitzer is supposedly a writer of some critical acclaim so how could she write something so poor The plot itself is ok I guess a bunch of students with various psychological problems are learning to eal with them by experiencing their issues in a sort of hypnotic world of Belzhar really But EVERYTHING about this story is superficial exploration of grief and guilt portrayal of first loveobsession and mental illness even teaching and critical reading of Plath is extremely simplisticBarely managed to skim through this i had a very medium response to this book i m conflicted about a number of its ifferent elements annoyedperplexed by others but also pretty impressed by the big reveal s ability to genuinely surprise me however that initial pleasantly surprised feeling morphed into additionally conflicted feelings once i processed the turn so
IT S ALL A JUMBLE OFs all a jumble of and confusing feelingswhich means i am in the same emotional state as all the characters in this book so let s call it a 35 for thatthis book has several components that are real karen grabbers smart troubled kids at boarding school secret history ish situation magical elements creeping into the everyday this is ordinarily the way to my heart and since after reading How To Be a Heroine i ecided to give The Bell
Jar another chance to win me over it seemed timely to read this since theanother chance to win me over it seemed timely to read this since the of this book is meant to be pronounced like bell jar it led to a couple of confusing conversations oh you re reading The Bell Jar no i m reading bellzzjjjhhar that s what i said oh the hilarity of miscommunicationhere s another fun conversation i had about this book this one with greg upon looking closely at the coverso this is about sad kidsDING DING DING greg wins the summarize a book by its cover gameand i liked it a lot at the beginning jam short for jamaica is a sixteen year old girl whose boyfriend the british exchange student reeve maxfield sooo not in love with the names of characters in this book ied forty one A South African Night days after they met where roughly only half of thoseays constituted the span of their relationship a year has passed and jam is in no way over her grief she fetishizes this tiny jar of jam get it he gave her she mopes around the house staying in bed for ays
wearing the same clothes avoiding her friends skipping school and making gloomy pronouncementsthe same clothes avoiding her friends skipping school and making gloomy pronouncements this one in a conversation with her twelve year old brother It ll suck without you in the houseYou better get used to it I said to him Our childhood together is pretty much overThat s mean he saidBut it s true And then eventually I went on one of us will ie And the other one will have to go to the funeral And give a speechdude bleakthe reason. Rding school in rural Vermont living with a weird roommate and signed up for an exclusive mysterious class called Special Topics in English But life isn’t fair and Reeve Maxfield is ead Until a journal writing assignment leads Jam to Belzhar where the untainted past is rest. .